Gathering my thoughts, twiddling my fingers, my hearts racing, my minds going non-stop, I watched the most disturbing 9 minute video of my life.
I Can’t Breathe…
I feel the anger building up within me, I feel some shifting parts. How do I proceed with all of this pain in my heart?
I Can’t Breathe…
I was once a little girl curled up on her little couch, crying her eyes out wondering why? why my father? Why did they have to gun him down? Pains that I revisit anytime I hear a similar story to how my father was killed. Police brutality being the worse, it’s heavy on my soul.
I Can’t Breathe…
Fast forward to now, I watched a good brother get murdered, knee to his neck all while he’s in distress by a group of police officers in a place I know nothing about but the overwhelming rush of emotions revisits my body now anger’s within.
I Can’t Breathe…
Answer me this, is prayer enough? If so than I come to you with all of me begging that you shield all my brothers and sisters out there on the streets. Please protect them while their emotions explode through this nation I know you can see. Allow our force to bring unity and justice for all who live in the face of hate. I’ve been leaning on love heavy these days can you please acknowledge that and place your healing hands over all who are fed up, all who are demanding change, all who I fear deeply for in the custody of these pigs.
I Can’t Breathe…
I’ve been running further away from these situations. I’ve grown to lead with love and aimed to discard of all the anger but I can no longer disappoint my kin, because if you truly know my heart you know that it’s not in me to remain quite. I speak my mind and let my voice be heard. YOU CANNOT KILL A BROTHER AND THINK WE WILL NOT REACT, THEY PROVOKED THIS, you do know that?
I Can’t Breathe…
So I come before you and the world today to simply ask for forgiveness of all the sins that come out of this pain. I refuse to sit back, I refuse to stay quiet, I have a powerful voice one that you gave me, to express at the dispense of pain so forgive me and the ones who are already out there in their face.
I Can’t Breathe…
I’ll keep love and my faith but Lord if you’re listening the anger is awake now and I refuse to suppress it any longer. My people are dying, crying out for their mothers as they take their last breaths. I cannot speak peace until the raft is felt, this is history repeating itself and I always told you I was not one for these games. I would speak up and lose my life before I allow anyone to treat me like I’m caged. There’s a mental lapse in the way these people operate, we were stolen we were the ones taken out of place. We helped them build this country up under pressure and we still did it with grace. My ancestors danced and sung in the face of the devil, others protested peacefully some took a different route. How can we still be going through this now?
I Can’t Breathe…
I lost sight of my true vision with all of this, my voice is way bigger than some of my experiences. I am triggered and I am armed with tons of knowledge that will take me far but I’m built with love and passion, interfere with that and behold a beast, I STAND WITH MY PEOPLE, OUR VOICE IS POWER, in the name of George Floyd, JUSTICE WE WILL SEE.
I Can’t Breathe…
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